lovepanda's Datingish

bye-bye DATINGISH

Mon, 22 Dec 2008 00:03:05 GMT

Ok so I'm leaving datingish (didn't mean to get on "datingish" in the first place) and am setting up a XANGA account. datingish just sounds gay. I have had a xanga blog before and it is so much better than datingish. I my xanga username is www.xanga.com/xXx_sexypanda_xXx ......

I will probably add most of you as my subscriptions again because I like reading you! :)

no one fricken reads this blog... much more people are on xanga than on datingish... idk.. just better stuff.

so yeah. byeeee

A Matter of Life or Death

Sun, 21 Dec 2008 20:48:11 GMT

On the front page of the newspaper today is a story titled "A Mother's Vigil".

It's a story about a lady who's son (when he was 7 and 1/2 months old) in January of 2001 shoved a piece of plastic down his throat, choked on it, and ended up cutting off oxygen to his brain.

8 years later, Landon is still in a coma. He is not even able to close his eyes when he sleeps.

obviously every other person that reads this article in the paper will have a different opinion about it.

mostly the opinions will be either pull the plug or let him be.

His mom quoted "...Landon is not brain dead; he's brain damaged. There's something still within this person. And it's not within my power to take it away."

Terri Schiavo anyone?

It costs a ton of money to keep him alive. He is at home on a ventilator requiring 24 hour care.

http://argusleader.com/article/20081221/NEWS/812210305&referrer=FRONTPAGECAROUSEL

The above link is for the full story.

I believe that I think if I was in her position, I would have done the same thing. I would not be able to just pull my son's plug. I feel like I would feel guilty for his death for the rest of my life. I probably wouldn't be able to forgive myself. I'd be in therapy forever.

So, what do YOU think? keep him alive/pull the plug.. reasoning behind choice...

Saturday, December 20, 2008

Sat, 20 Dec 2008 13:45:54 GMT

It is a bitterly cold, snowy, windy, and all around crappy December day here in South Dakota. it's one of those days that makes me want to hibernate until may. I have pretty much decided that it has to be an emergency for me to even leave my house for the next couple of days. I was supposed to go about 20 miles away to work today (I work in home health care) and I called into work and was like, yeah, pretty sure I'm not going anywhere. at least the lady I talked to said she didn't blame me, so that's good. At least it's going to be 29 degrees F on Christmas day, and only a chance of snow, so I am pretty excited about that. It sure beats a -30 degree windchill.

The in-laws came down last night and took me and the hubby out to eat at a nice mexican restaraunt, in fact the same restaraunt were out rehearsal dinner was at. we all LOVe mexican, so it's pretty nice. marc's brother and sister in law that I haven't seen since july at my wedding were also there, so it was good to see them. I had had a horrible headache all day, and that dinner was no different. although the food made it a little better, it didn't fix anything. I had two fantastic margaritas, pretty exciting. my mother-in-law insisted on driving my car home after me having 2 margaritas. i tried telling her that I was fine ( i would have to drink about 5 more of those margaritas to truly be too drunk to drive home) but, she wasn't having it. I was kind of embarassed because the 3 boxes of clothes that I got from my parent's house last week were still sitting in there, and you couldn't see the passenger side floor because of all the junk on it. It has just been too damn cold lately to clean it out though. When it's in the negatives, I am not going to go outside just to clean the junk out of my car. I get around just fine the way it is. When spring comes around again, I will do a spring clean-out. until then, I'm good.

Hubby wanted to go play beer pong (for the 2nd night in a row) at this guy he works with house last night. I didn't want to go because I still had a really bad headache. Also, I really just wanted to stay home, watch some TV and hang out with husband. Is that too much to ask? I'm pretty sure he thought it was. It took me a long time to convince him to stay home. It took me about 5 times of telling that i was NOT going to come get him when he was drunk to convince him. oh yeah, and I stole every set of keys in the house and hid them ahh i'm evil sometimes.

does anyone else remember the show "recess" that used to be on TV.. I think it was always on Saturday mornings. anyways, that used to be my favorite show, and I don't know that it's on anymore! :(... that was random...

well, I'm going to go back to bed now and stay there for a while. I may try to write more later or something.

9 days till christmas! :)

Tue, 16 Dec 2008 02:58:28 GMT

Well, tonight we took pictures for our Christmas card. trying to get 2 rowdy dogs to sit still and look at the camera for a nice picture is quite the challenge. I'm pretty sure we took about 20 pictures. to make it worse We had to take the pic using self timer because we didn't have anyone to help us. side note: since when is xanga acting like word and underlining every word that isn't perfectly English???

this is the one I ended up choosing.. good?

I remember I used to be able to just click on the picture and it would show up on my post, now I actually have to copy and paste some HTML onto here... oh yeah and I can't change the font or color of my text?

in other news, my best friend told me the other day that she gets depressed every time she sees me. she doesn't get depressed when she sees my husband or when i'm on the way to see her... just when we actually see each other.
we can't seem to figure out EXACTLY why it is, but think it may be because of my happy but not happy with my marriage. anyways, that's a story for another day

matthew mccounaghay (i can't spell his last name!) is on sex and the city, along with sarah michelle geller. cool...

and, here are some pictures of me that i took the other night before going out... the date on my camera is fucked up for some reason, obviously it's not may of 2026

and these are from other days...

i fly like paper, get high like planes....

Mon, 01 Dec 2008 01:23:12 GMT

sorry i've kinda been MIA lately. i've been busy and just haven't had much time to actually get on here and write something. i have been working out for at least an hour everyday, and have been doin some swimming as well. have lost around 8 pounds, which is nice. i went to walmart today to get christmas lights and some other decorations for my house today.... 70 something dollars later..... geez its craziness. but anyways i decorated my tree some more and put some other lights up around my house. pretty cool. i love christmas, it's my favorite time of year.

so i have this person i know named maggie. she, me and my friend gordo all used to be friends. couple months ago, gordo decided she didn't like maggie anymore and wanted no contact whatsoever, not only for herself, but after a while for me as well. so, on october 11, gordo texts me and says that i shouldn't talk to maggie anymore or hang out with her anymore. if i hang out with her anymore, we will have to rethink Our friendship. well, guess waht, i go back to talkin to maggie and hangin out with her as well. apparently gordo knows a fuckton of people, and apparently she knows every fuckin time i talked to maggie and everytime i went out with her. apparently i make it completely obvious. well, this past weekend me n gordo had "the talk" again, and she really gave me the ultimatum this time, quit talking to maggie and quit hangin out with her or else i'm done with you completely. maggie is the only reason we would ever fight. so, i'm thinkin maggie isn't worth this. and yes, i decided i am done with her now for real this time. IS GORDO RIGHT TO DO THIS?

sooo i'm very fat. i would call myself morbidly obese, maybe other people wouldn't, i don't know. 5 foot 6 1/2 inches, 245 pounds. 38.9 BMI... i really am fat. and i'm allowed to say that. and i'm actually trying to lose weight, but it just takes so much time.

well i gotta study now, i have a sociology test tmrw morning.

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

Tue, 11 Nov 2008 13:40:31 GMT

so i just love it how my husband always bitches about how we don't have any money and yelled at me for getting groceries then decided last night that we should go spend 40 bucks at the bar last night. ahh well it was fun and it's not like i was protesting.

ya should have seen it this morning me, my husband, my big dog and my little dog were all in the double bed at the same time. it was crazy full.

well i gotta go study my microbiology for my test tomorrow... sorry this is a crappy post, i'll try and put a better one up later! :)

dashing thru the snow.....

Fri, 07 Nov 2008 14:00:56 GMT

It snowed!!! and now it's blowing!!! although we only got probly an inch, it's still snow. although we are lucky here, i heard that out on the opposite side of the state (in the mountains area) they have something like 2 feet of snow and 60-80 mile/hour winds... ahh so, only in this state can it be *kind of* snowing on this side and completely blizzarding on the other side. also only in this state will it go from 73 degrees to 34 degrees in the course of 3 days.

yesterday i had a physiology test and the whole class did so horrible (the teacher was checking the tests in class) that he said we could all retake it if we wanted to to try for a better grade. he's going to re-write the test, so hopefully it will turn out better.

ahhhh kungfu panda comes out on sunday. so excited.

so i'm really irritated because my period is a week late, i have really bad headaches, am tired, but NOT preggo. urghhh idk what the fuck is wrong with me. stupid, stupid, stupid.

i am one sad, sad panda because no one has been commenting on my posts lately.

i mean, i know i'm not the greatest writer ever to walk to the earth, but geez people

this is max

max again haha mocha with a hat on "little orange riding hood"

mocha just got a hair cut!

soo happy it's over!

Wed, 05 Nov 2008 13:54:20 GMT

so there you have it everyone, barack obama is our new president. he won by a landslide, CNN had something like him with 305 electoral votes and mccain with only 150 electoral votes. the democrats seem to get lucky in that (seems like) every person on the coasts are democrat. therefore, they get big cities such as los angeles, new york, seattle, baltimore, philadelphia, etc.. so, even though mccain won 30 states and obama only won 18 (so to speak), obama wins because of what i mentioned earlier. and, mccain seems to lose because of the fact that he gets stuck with all these midwest states and others that just do not have the populace to hold him up.

I can say that even though I voted for McCain, I am happy with Obama getting it. I think that this country really could use the "change" that he keeps talking about, since our country (economy mostly) is pretty much in the toilet. also, i think it's great that we finally broke the WHITE male mold deal and finally were able to elect a black president, it's quite the historical event. i watched McCain's speech right after we all found out that obama won and i thought it was kinda sad how EVERYONE there was like BOOOOOOOO. although it was nice that mccain was like "quit!"

welp, the battery on my computer is about to die so i'm gonna sign off for now. i might try to write more later.

P.S. measure 11 was NOT passed. YAY! :)

teachers and "17 kids and counting"

Tue, 04 Nov 2008 03:12:53 GMT

can i just say that i really love teachers/professors that truely care about how you feel/who you are, etc...
I had a few of them in high school, and not until today have i felt like i had a college professor like that. of course i think that teacher's in high school normally do care much more for you than a college professor every will. it's just reality. high school and college are like night and day.

anyways, to my story. i am in this class called "physiology and integrated anatomy" and i have a test in that class on thursday and i was going thru the study guide and had some questions on it and i wanted to get my case study back from him. anyways, we were talking, i was asking questions that he was answering. and i mentioned something about how i bombed the last test. he said why, i said, bad life and b/c i just didn't give a shit. so he asked if my life is any better now. and i say "no, in fact it's gotten a bit worse" (which it has)..... we talked about depression and i told him about how people can't believe that i'm depressed because apparently my life is fucking fantastic. i told him about how my mother made me suffer for a few years b/c she didn't believe in taking meds, she only believes in therapy. needless to say, therapy can't really give me more seratonin in my brain, so it didn't work. finally a few months ago i got a different diagnosis and the doc was able to give me meds. i then got lazy after a couple months of taking them and stupidly stopped. so, here i am again in misery. ok so on with the story. he told me there's a free clinic somewhere here in town where i could get some meds and also walgreens has some sort of an insurance plan in themselves that i can get on, and therefore get meds from there cheaper. basically he told me he will do whatever he can to make sure that i get meds so i start feeling better. he struggles with depression as well, so he indeed does know where i am coming from... 20 minutes later..... so, we had a nice talk. it was good.

soo i just got done watching "17 kids and counting"... ya know that show where they have 17 kids, the wife is preggers, and they are extremely conservative yada yada yada.... anyways, the oldest child is a boy, and he has a girlfriend down in florida (he lives in arkansas or something), and he wants to marry her. so, he calls her parents and ask for their permission, of course they say yeah... he drives down to florida to propose to her at a restaraunt over supper w/ her parents. blah blah blah yes i'll marry you blah blah blah... k on we go. so, they have pledged not to kiss eachother (or do anything but hold hands) until their wedding day. and they have to have choffeurs with them when they are driving to make sure nothing "impure" happens.

i think this is pretty rediculous. so what do you think???? do you agree with this or disagree?? why/why not???

haha i'm very curious tonight, i would love to hear what you think. :)

election stuff

Sun, 02 Nov 2008 15:22:45 GMT

so, normally I don't like to post on things like politics or whatever, but I feel like i should post something

ok, so here's the deal. honestly, I don't know enough about either of the candidates to really know who I should vote for. I do know that neither one of them are particularly fantastic, but idk. anyways, I was at my parent's house last night and my little brother says something about the election and who am i gonna vote for. my mother says i sure as hell better not vote for obama because of his view on abortion. "he would abort his own grandchildren!!!" is the quote of my younger sister. so, apparently if one of his kid's got preggo while they were teenagers, he would want them to have an abortion so that they wouldn't have to be punished with a child. Anyways, I thought that every one of those comments were really stupid, because i mean the only reason that they would never vote for obama is because of his view on abortion. don't we have other, more important issues that people should be looking at? such as national security or taxes or something.

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oh ya and there's this law in SD that people are trying to pass, and it's called Measure 11.

according to voteyesforlife.com, measure 11 is:

Title:
An Initiative to prohibit abortions except in cases where the mother’s life or health is at a substantial and irreversible risk, and in cases of reported rape and incest.

Attorney General Explanation:
Currently a woman may obtain an abortion during the first 24 weeks of pregnancy. Beyond 24 weeks, abortions may be performed only if necessary to preserve the life or health of the woman.

Measure 11 would prohibit all abortions performed by medical procedures or substances administered to terminate a pregnancy, except for: abortions medically necessary to prevent death or the serious risk of substantial and irreversible impairment of a major bodily organ or system of the woman, and abortions to terminate a pregnancy of less than 20 weeks resulting from rape or incest reported to law enforcement.

When an abortion is performed as a result of reported rape or incest, the woman must consent to biological sampling from herself and the embryo or fetus for DNA testing by law enforcement.

Measure 11 would allow the provision of contraception substances prior to the time pregnancy can be determined by conventional medical testing, or assistance in obtaining abortions in states where the procedure is legal.

If approved, Measure 11 will likely be challenged in court and may be declared to be in violation of the United States Constitution. The State may be required to pay attorneys fees and costs

so basically what this is, is that they are trying to put a law into effect that prohibits the use of abortion as a form of birth control.

I will call myself pro-choice, but not necessarily pro-abortion. i do believe there is a difference. I don't necessarily love abortion, but i have never been one to force my opinion on someone, and I will not be one to tell someone they absolutely CAN NOT have an abortion. if you don't like abortion, don't have one. it's easy as that. oh yeah, and i don't think the government should be able to decide things like this, it is a personal choice that should be up to the family, or just the person that's preggers.

but ya (big mistake) i said something about this to my mother and she totally went off on me about how if they don't pass this, then they will just kill everyone. ya know euthanasia and stuff. it was crazy.

so, what do you think? would you vote yes or no, and why.

election day is tuesday. I can not wait for that day to be here and passed, I am sooo sick of all this crap. every single place and yard you look there is some sort of sign (normally about 5 signs/yard) saying who you should or shouldn't vote for, mainly such things as this measure 11, or measure 10, or different senators and stuff.

and, I am completely sick of hear tons of crap about the different candidates and how each one thinks they are so much more superior to the other when neither of them are all that fantastic.

ok, i'm done. gotta do my homework.